Hello there! We are almost at the end of the week already! This week was a mixed client week, so it’s really gone by fast for me. Sometimes that’s a good thing, and sometimes that’s a bad thing. I think this week it’s definitely a good thing.
I was going to stop by earlier this week and tell you all about the shopping I’ve been doing lately, but I never finished my post. I think I’ll save that for the weekend or next week. After all, I have more shopping to do this evening! Instead, let’s talk about Intuitive Eating and my head voices.
I recently discovered I can read Nook books online using Internet Explorer. That’s huge because now I can read my saved Nook books while eating my lunch at work. Awesome! Anyway, I began rereading my copy of Intuitive Eating since that is currently what I’m working on. If you are not familiar with the Intuitive Eating book, here is a quick summary of the principles (here’s a more in-depth look at these principles; from now on, when I say “Intuitive Eating” I’m talking about these principles):
- Reject the diet mentality
- Honor your hunger
- Make peace with food
- Challenge the food police
- Respect your fullness
- Discover the satisfaction factor
- Honor your feelings without using food
- Respect your body
- Exercise – feel the difference
- Honor your health
I am really working on some of these principles this week! The ones in pink above are the ones that I’ve been dedicating my week to. It’s been a lovely time, but it hasn’t been all roses.
Those Voices in My Head
That makes me sound absolutely crazy – I love it! I’m not talking about hearing crazy voices; I’m talking about those voices in my head that make me feel guilty, embarrassed, not worthy, etc. around food, exercise, and my body. I freaking hate those voices! Do you know what I’m talking about? If not, here are two examples I gave my husband this morning:
Back story first. Since I am working on making peace with food, I decided last night’s dinner was going to be anything that I was craving. I had two thoughts – Doritos and cheesecake or White Castle (I had just driven past the sign :)). Here is what those voices in my head were saying about both choices:
Regarding Doritos and cheesecake – “Everyone is going to look at you funny for buying Doritos and cheesecake. They are going to think, ‘look at that fat girl buying Doritos and cheesecake so she can go home and stuff her face with them’. Okay, if anyone looks at me funny, I will tell them that I am having a party and that’s why I need Doritos and cheesecake.”
Regarding White Castle – “The person at the drive through will definitely be thinking, ‘look at this greasy faced fat girl getting White Castle. That’s just what a greasy faced fat girl needs to make her even greasier and fatter.’”
Seriously, those voices are just so harsh! I ended up choosing pizza, Doritos, and cheesecake. Do you know what? Nobody looked at me funny. The girl checking me out didn’t even bat an eyelash (you know, except to blink). I got myself all worked up and beat myself up for absolutely nothing. That’s so not right! I’m really working on getting rid of those voices in my head, and replacing them with nice and thoughtful voices. Today, they have been so kind and complimentary! I think I learned a huge lesson by buying what I wanted at the store yesterday and not listening to those darn voices.
Can I just tell you how amazing my dinner was?! I really used Intuitive Eating correctly last night! While my pizza was cooking away in the oven, I enjoyed a few Doritos, just to the point where I was still a little hungry. After my pizza was done, I enjoyed one slice – just enough to get me to a just below neutral point in my hunger scale. From there, I read my book for a while until I felt a little hungry again. That is when I enjoyed some cheesecake. At the end of the evening I was emotionally and physically satisfied with my dinner and myself.
I’m really looking forward to exploring Intuitive Eating further and making peace with myself. I know I’ve “tried” Intuitive Eating in the past, but I never fully embraced each step and each principle. This time, I feel like I’m in a perfect mind space to do just that. Here’s to loving my body and the food I put in it!