Happy happy Monday! It’s a cold and snowy one here today. Ugh, more snow. I had a dermatologist appointment this morning, so I had to go out in it. The roads were a mess, and I almost got stuck at a stop sign. I’m happy to be home for the rest of the day!
Did you do anything fun for Valentine’s Day? The hubs wasn’t able to get home until late that evening, so I played the guy roll and bought flowers, chocolate, and wine. I pretended like I bought them for him, but, let’s be honest, they were for me.
I also made us a tasty dinner. I had planned for steak and cheesy mashed potatoes, but the grocery store had some crab cakes that looked way better than their steaks. So we had crab cakes and cheesy mashed potatoes. A delicious and easy meal to put together!
Body Woes & Fixes
Yesterday I attended a bridal shower for my friend Julie. I had a bit of a clothing dilemma before I left. Nothing seemed to fit! All of my jeans were tight, and I was just not feeling it. I so wanted to just wear sweatpants! I ended up wearing jeans, but I felt pretty self-conscious the whole time. I didn’t stay as long as I would have to socialize, but left pretty much right after the shower was over. It just sucked not feeling great. And I’ve been having a lot of those days lately. Boo.
Because I had felt bad during the day, last night I had a bit of a binge. That’s always how it works for me – I feel down in the dumps about something and I binge. It is an awful habit!
Due to feeling awful yesterday and my little binge last night, I vowed to work on my body and weight starting today. I’m really starting to get intuitive eating down, except for instances where I spiral like yesterday because of bad feelings. While I continue to work on that, it’s time to get my weight down!
Yesterday I started Bethenny Frankel’s book, Naturally Thin: Unleash Your SkinnyGirl and Free Yourself From a Lifetime of Dieting, and thought a lot about how some naturally thin people I know, and those I follow online, eat. Here’s the thing – they all eat pretty healthy. I mean some more than others, but for the most part all of the naturally thin people I know and follow eat healthy except for splurges now and then. I haven’t been doing that lately. Don’t get me wrong, I needed to eat junk for a while to know that these foods are okay to eat, but now I’m ready to move on and eat like a naturally thin person does. This is a HUGE step and a HUGE accomplishment, so let’s stop to pat myself on the back. *pat pat*
To figure out where I’m starting from, I hopped on the scale this morning. Ouch. It’s just a number, and I was actually guessing I was pretty close to that number (actually I thought higher!) just because of how my body looks and clothes fit. It was still hard to swallow. I’m not going to tell you that number, but let’s just say I’ve never seen that middle digit in my life!
Another tangent here… sorry, this post might end up full of them. I’m happy with myself for not seeing that number on the scale and beating myself up. I saw it, said “yep, that makes sense”, hopped in the shower, and thought more about my plans for making that number smaller. In the past I would have seen that number, felt a deep sinking feeling inside myself, and just gone through my day in a mope. Not anymore! It’s just a number, it’s just fat, and this is just a body. I’m really beginning to realize this, although I have obviously not mastered it… I defer to my story about yesterday.
Okay back to my planning. I’m just planning to eat healthy and really listen to my body! Bethenny talked about this in her book, and I read it in another interview online with someone who is naturally thin, but our bodies can often handle eating half of what we normally eat, we just aren’t listening for that little “I’m full” message. There are also smart swaps to healthier foods or versions of foods that our minds won’t even miss. To put those both into an example, this morning I had half of an egg, cheese, and bagel sandwich (would normally have had a full) using egg whites and ultra thin cheese instead of eggs and a regular slice. I was satisfied with the half sandwich, and I didn’t miss the yolk or extra cheese. An easy enough swap!
The other part of my plan is to get back into exercise. I’ve missed that! I quit exercising regularly because it was something I was forcing myself to do to burn calories. It’s still hard to exercise and not think about melting fat or burning calories. Now I want to exercise because I know my body needs it. However, at the end of last week I was really thinking about how I’m not sure what a normal workout schedule looks like. I turned to my Facebook friends for help!
I had way too much fun protecting my friends privacy there! Anyway, you can see I got 20 comments on my post, most helping me out by telling me how many days they work out. Funny, but nobody said they didn’t work out, and I later talked to friends who were scared to say they didn’t.
From the above, I put some of my fun
accounting skills spreadsheet obsessions to use and calculated the average of how much my friends work out.
As you can see from my picture, my friends work out an average of 4 days each week. Of course this is skewed since nobody said zero. If you’re wondering why there are .5s up there, that’s because some people say ranges, so I averaged the range. I’m a nerd.
Having this information in hand, I think I’m going to try to set my goal to work out 4 days per week. That’s more manageable than the 5-6 that I had previously always striven for.
For now, I’m just going to work out how I feel, with an emphasis on running since I need to get back into running shape for summer races. I started last week by run/walking twice at the gym. Go me!
This post has gotten awfully long! I’ll stop here. I just wanted to let you know what’s going down over here (get it?). Have a great start to your week!